why can you not fade from my battered mind? 

why do you stay, taunting me every waking moment

digging invisible daggers into my tattered heart

you said you loved me, you said you needed me, that i was perfect and wonderful and beautiful

but you used me and then threw me away

tried to get me back with empty promises

the sad thing is…i still want to believe those promises

though i see the insincerity, i would pull the wool over my own eyes

if it just meant i wouldn’t be alone any longer

it seeps into every pore

it is cold, almost unendurable

it is hot, painfully so

you can’t see it

you can’t feel it

it occupies everything

there is no cure, there is no vaccine

it never really goes away

misery, when it comes, it comes to stay